Reckoning of the self :

Is it normal to feel like a bunch of your stupid decisions have led you to a present that you don't enjoy ? In fact, enjoy is too strong an emotion, is it possible for you to feel that so strongly you want to break from the chains of the present as they are digging deeper into your psyche -- causing you to spiral and indulge in behaviors that will forever keep you here : SO MISERABLE ... and SO NUMB .